And, having some time away from the usual routine and responsibilities I have realised that I don't show much compassion to myself. I have very high expectations of what I should achieve in all areas of my life even when things are falling apart around my ears! Feel a failure for the many times I fail because the standards are too high.
But particularly when it comes to relationships with those around me. You see others can mess up and make mistakes and I still love and accept them but I can't..not in the Miss Anna rule book! I have to get it right, treat people right, love right...when I don't I kick myself really hard and it hurts. But I'm learning...slowly. That the love of those around me really does cover all the bumps and ugly bits. And more important, that I have a God who isn't a harsh task master. Far from it; he is more interested in a heart that loves and trusts in him than my performance:
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
Matthew 11 v 28-29