Looking back on the past year it's had it's fair share of ups and downs. Some amazing things have happened, some equally difficult things. Made some lovely new friends; managed to keep some lovely old ones!
But through it all, I know God has been good to me, even on the hardest days. He has always given me what I've needed.
And I've learnt a lot of things. The main thing? As I've heard the Bible explained week by week at church the same theme keeps coming up. The most immense thing in my life is that Jesus has saved me. So simple yet incredibly profound. And mind shatteringly important.
Whatever 2015 holds, through the joys, and no doubt some sorrows, I know that God will be with me in everything. And that really is the best thing in the whole world!
Sometimes I sits and thinks. Sometimes I just sits.
How apt after devoting part of the day to my least favourite past-time: shopping. I did emerge mainly with what I went for but at a cost to my sanity!
Hoping a good dose of U2 can revive me, saved for such occasions...failing that I'm going to have to bake some bread or something to get rid of the frustration. Need to make a load of pastry in preparation for tomorrow but fear I would pound it to oblivion in present frame of mind.
PS I'm OK really. Plenty of poetic licence. But I still really don't like going shopping!
Yes, yes, yes...a pile of papers for the rubbish and only a handful of piles to sort. Come to the conclusion that a lot of paper needs to go straight to recycling when it comes in the house actually!
One heart-stopping moment when I thought I'd accidentally thrown away my driving licence in a previous cull. Many of you will know I like to keep my driving licence close after an admin error on my part earlier in the year caused a separation resulting in getting to work in the country being problematic for a few days! Never again....phew.
Can't be fun, fun, fun, all the time...now going to lock myself in a room with a CD Christmas present and my filling cabinet and it's sort, sort, sort because it has to be done and then we can go back to fun, fun, fun. I am letting you "Dear Blog" be my conscience on this one. If there are no more postings it's been curtains on my filing and I'll be rocking in a corner somewhere hanging my head in shame!!
I actually think motorway services rock!! Can't really explain why but there's something about them I find really exciting.
This has to be the best in the universe. There is a farm shop which is just epic. You have never seen so many different varieties of pies in your life! Worth a trip in it's own right just to see it and right next to J38 of the M6.
This piece of toddler taming equipment terrified me today. With walking about to commence at any day important to have a separation from the rest of the house and the toddler. But the problem was I needed to get through to got to the loo. Not a clue how to move it!!! It was opened once for me but then I had to return. Eventually managed with some guidance. Not from the toddler I might add!
But this is just the tip of the ice-berg. There's prams, baby carriers, buggies, car seats, high chairs. All completely unique and only workable to people with an IQ above a certain ceiling. Today's and past experience shows me it's above mine. I am going to have to step up to the mark if I'm going to have a meaningful part in my future nephew or niece's life. Would be nice to make it further than the sofa!
Got a massive cinema deficit which seeking to address.
Imitation Game was fantastic. Only really went to see Benedict Cumberband; most people don't understand that! He didn't disappoint but Keira Knightly was a fantastic co-star. I am absolutely fascinated by stories from Bletchley Park and the code breakers and I'm sure they'll be more drama to come out over the years. Meanwhile this film is unmissable.
I have long conversations with a certain girly friend about the word compassion. We keep coming back to it again and again. It's about showing compassion to others, allowing them to make mistakes without judging them. But likewise showing compassion to ourselves.
And, having some time away from the usual routine and responsibilities I have realised that I don't show much compassion to myself. I have very high expectations of what I should achieve in all areas of my life even when things are falling apart around my ears! Feel a failure for the many times I fail because the standards are too high.
But particularly when it comes to relationships with those around me. You see others can mess up and make mistakes and I still love and accept them but I can't..not in the Miss Anna rule book! I have to get it right, treat people right, love right...when I don't I kick myself really hard and it hurts. But I'm learning...slowly. That the love of those around me really does cover all the bumps and ugly bits. And more important, that I have a God who isn't a harsh task master. Far from it; he is more interested in a heart that loves and trusts in him than my performance:
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
Famous last words. Oh yes I'll just go to sleep at usual time , keep in a good routine...and Mills and Starkey really weren't the best company when I woke up. Don't find them easy at the best of times let alone after a rough night!
I am incredibly excited to anticipate the final in the current series of Homeland. With two more series planned at least the main characters will be kept alive. Or will they? No spoilers here but we all know this can't be taken for granted.
I am literally on the edge of my sofa...if anyone tries to make contact in the next hour...well you'll be waiting an hour for a return call! Or try for the adverts...;)
Tidying has gone to the bottom of the queue prioritised over by chilling. Always another time...like later next year!
Found a link on Facebook to an older article by this blogger but had a look around the blog and it's a goldmine. This one just made me laugh! Plenty more serious articles covering a whole load of topics.